can't quit looking over my shoulder...
Apr. 11th, 2008 | 03:45 am
key:
touched
I've been listening to its soundtrack alone, in the dark, during a thunderstorm.... This is without a doubt the most intense sound I've ever heard in my life. Intense doesn't even begin to describe it. Evanescence, dragon force, rachmaninov, AC DC... I could describe any one of those as 'Intense'. This is something different... There were a few times where I had to take the headphones off because it was too much; that doesn't ever happen to me. Not listening to music. Nothing is too much for me. I can't remember ever actually feeling scared for my life just listening to music!
Music is a drug to me, it reaches straight into my soul and writes my emotions, governs my thoughts. Something about sound... any one note by itself is just a note. It carries no feeling, no emotion, no meaning, no power. Play two or three notes together, you begin to capture some feeling. Play a sequence of notes, and nothing short of a miracle happens... Music is why I believe in God... Music is divine. How else could mere fluctuations in air pressure have such an incredibly, universally profound effect on a human being? Music is the one language that nearly every human on the planet can understand. You can capture any emotion that the human heart is capable of feeling in a collection of musical notes, and play those notes to another person, and that person will have a tendency to feel that same emotion. Is that not miraculous? Music is the language of God, and the language of the heart.
I'm drained. I'm going to bed.
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The internet really is a great thing.
Jan. 19th, 2008 | 12:03 am
key:
restless
I had this conversation with a newer member of the alliance that i'm a member of, and i just had to share it. How often do you get to have a casual chat with someone living in eastern russia? It started in a channel called 'local' where basically everyone around can see and was stuff to do with the game, and moved over a private conversation where we just talked about life in general. I'm posting the private convo, last thing he asked me in local was where i was from.
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Jan. 14th, 2008 | 02:35 am
key:
frustrated
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You've gotta wonder where they get the number...
Dec. 23rd, 2007 | 06:49 pm
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Nov. 6th, 2007 | 10:31 pm
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Sep. 7th, 2007 | 06:13 am
key:
hyper
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Jun. 27th, 2007 | 01:49 am
key:
what?
But I see I'm not the only one who's given lj a pretty good break; a quick check of my friends list tells me that scott, sarah, and a few other people's accounts have either been deleted intentionally or because of inactivity. Lindsay hasn't posted since she was in mexico, and not many of my old high school friends have posted anything in the last month or so. So i suppose people are moving on with their lives, no big deal right? it's what people do, they move on. That's cool i guess... but I'm kind of sad that i haven't talked to any of them in such a long time! Even with the magic of the internet, i'm losing touch with many of the people who used to be my best friends.
Let's see, right now i'm attending summer classes at speed school, and with any luck I'll be doing my co-op at a cardiovascular research lab that specializes in VAD research. (a VAD is a Ventricular assist device; sort of like an artifical heart except it works with the heart rather than replacing it.) The material is interesting, but the work can be boring as hell. I do lots of data analysis, which is basically taking a huge list of numbers (millions) and reducing it down to a merely very large list of numbers (thousands), and then potentially reducing that list yet again to a respectable list of general properties (like peak systolic pressure and mean aortic flow). The science is cool, writing the algorithms to do the analysis is gratifying, but running them is just repetitive and dull. Ah well, they say I'll get to do cooler things when I do my co-op.
As far as classes go, i've pretty much been a complete and total slacker. this is bad. I've ranted about this sort of thing before, so I won't subject you guys to a repeat, but let's just say i cuss at myself a lot for sleeping through morning classes and such... :(
Anyway right now I've got pretty much no social life, other than getting to see nicole on the weekends whenever the opportunity presents itself and random people I run into while wandering campus. My randomly assigned roommate is cool enough, but he's got even less of a social life than i do. this means that he is absolutely always in the room, except when he has morning classes. He's also a bit of a talker, which can get a little annoying from time to time, but overall he's a nice guy. (But not as cool as huey! :P ) I'm definitely looking forward to getting my own room next year; a little privacy would be really nice. My lack of a social life can probably be blamed on my guitar and a somewhat enjoyable game called eve online that is doing its best to eat my life.
Anyway it's late and i really should go to bed, I'm sure I'll post more about the random things going on in my life right now eventually. In the meantime maybe I'll drop a facebook message to some of the people I haven't talked to in awhile.
Oh by the way I was in wal mart today and the cashier looked vaguely like my dad enough to make me worry about my life a bit... He had roughly the same hair, even with a few grey hairs, and he was very friendly. But i realized, I'd always assumed that by that point in my life I'd be a little farther along in the world than a wal mart cashier, but when i look at the amount of slacking i've done lately i realize if i keep it up I might not get much farther than that =/
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taxes...
May. 5th, 2007 | 05:13 pm
If they paid their bill the way we pay our taxes, it would go something like this:
The first four men (the poorest) would pay nothing.
The fifth would pay $1.
The sixth would pay $3.
The seventh would pay $7.
The eighth would pay $12.
The ninth would pay $18.
The tenth man (the richest) would pay $59.
So, that's what they decided to do.
The ten men drank in the bar every day and seemed quite happy with the arrangement, until one day, the owner threw them a curve.
"Since you are all such good customers," he said, "I'm going to reduce the cost of your daily beer by $20."Drinks for the ten now cost just $80.
The group still wanted to pay their bill the way we pay our taxes so the first four men were unaffected. They would still drink for free. But what about the other six men - the paying customers? How could they divide the $20 windfall so that everyone would get his 'fair share?'
They realized that $20 divided by six is $3.33. But if they subtracted that from everybody's share, then the fifth man and the sixth man would each end up being paid to drink his beer.
So, the bar owner suggested that it would be fair to reduce each man's bill by roughly the same amount, and he proceeded to work out the amounts each should pay.
And so:
The fifth man, like the first four, now paid nothing (100% savings).
The sixth now paid $2 instead of $3 (33%savings).
The seventh now pay $5 instead of $7 (28%savings).
The eighth now paid $9 instead of $12 (25% savings).
The ninth now paid $14 instead of $18 (22% savings).
The tenth now paid $49 instead of $59 (16% savings).
Each of the six was better off than before. And the first four continued to drink for free. But once outside the restaurant, the men began to compare their savings.
"I only got a dollar out of the $20,"declared the sixth man. He pointed to the tenth man," but he got $10!"
"Yeah, that's right," exclaimed the fifth man. "I only saved a dollar,
Too. It's unfair that he got TEN times more than I!"
"That's true!!" shouted the seventh man. "Why should he get $10 back
When I got only two? The wealthy get all the breaks!"
"Wait a minute," yelled the first four men in unison. "We didn't get
Anything at all. The system exploits the poor!"
The nine men surrounded the tenth and beat him up.
The next night the tenth man didn't show up for drinks, so the nine
Sat down and had beers without him. But when it came time to pay the
Bill, they discovered something important. They didn't have enough money between
All of them for even half of the bill!
And that, boys and girls, journalists and college professors, is how our tax system works. The people who pay the highest taxes get the most benefit from a tax reduction. Tax them too much, attack them for being wealthy, and they just may not show up anymore. In fact, they might start drinking overseas where the atmosphere is somewhat friendlier.
David R. Kamerschen, Ph.D.
Professor of Economics
University of Georgia
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Feb. 27th, 2007 | 01:17 pm
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And I will too!
Feb. 17th, 2007 | 08:10 pm
I've been working on this list for awhile, and i wanted to see what y'all thought. Is there anything important missing? I'll probably keep adding and rephrasing stuff for a long time...
Things to do before I die:
Run a marathon.
Skydive Solo.
Land a flip on a wakeboard, get the picture to prove it.
Climb a mountain with a name, get the picture to prove it.
Get Certified for scuba diving, dive a shipwreck. Take pictures.
Hunt big game in Africa.
Learn to play piano, fiddle, and harmonica.
Go to a mass said by the pope and one in the Sistine chapel.
Learn another language (German, Latin, Greek, Hebrew, Aramaic, etc.)
Read the bible cover to cover.
Backpack Europe.
Play “the hunt” by Tommy Emmanuel on guitar.
Learn finger-thumb independence (guitar fingerpicking technique).
Go on a backpacking trip of over 100 miles (can restock along the way, but must sleep outside every night.)
Take a good picture of a tornado, a lightning bolt, and a large explosion. (Not necessarily all in the same picture... but it would be cool!)
Blow up something big.
Take vocal lessons, learn to sing.
Fill up a few paper journals.
Write a song. (with lyrics!)
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Jan. 22nd, 2007 | 03:06 pm
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i guess i could try a serious update
Jan. 17th, 2007 | 03:49 am
key:
high
I'm really busy lately, but it's a good busy. I always hated sitting around and doing nothing, but for some reason for the longest time when given the opportunity that's exactly what i'd do... It seems like this semester is going to be more like the summer (good) rather than last fall (bad) or last spring (hideous). i think a school semester is kind of like a run; if you start a run fast and hard, that's how the whole run goes. you might slow down a little, but overall you finish with a good time. If you start slow and get settled into an easy pace, then it's almost impossible to break that pattern later on and you end up with a crappy time. As long as I get a decent pattern down early on, i should be okay for the rest of the semester. being in speed school, that pattern is kinda full though, hence me being busy as hell. staying up till 4 in the morning as often as i have probably doesn't help much either!
lol, not that i'm complaining about staying up... if you didn't already know nicole and i are going out (yes, again) but this time i think it might stick for awhile. (we dated for about a week junior year of high school... fun story!) It's been awhile since i've gotten to let feelings for a girl develop beyond a mild crush, and i think i really missed it. I'm perfectly happy being single, but damn it's a good feeling to fall asleep with her head on my shoulder... (no huey, no penis touching involved so far. damn dirty canadian... )
I'm thinking i'm going to stay away from climbing for the most part this semester, and then maybe pick it up again in the summer. it's really the best decision right now, partly because of the money (climbing is expensive!) and partly because of the time. I'll hit the gym to run and workout whenever i can spare the time and energy, but that will probably be all the physical activity i'll get this semester. poop.
guitar is so much fun... i left the playstation at home on purpose, so that's what i do to take a break from work. I've been picking up some of tommy emmanuel's songs (well, rough approximations that don't do justice to the real thing, but they're still a lot of fun to play) as well as some other stuff. Right now i'm working on 'sunset soon forgotten' by iron and wine, just because i like the funky fingerpicking pattern in that...
classes are boring, but the material's pretty interesting so it's not too tough. I also have invested in a coffee maker and decided that i really don't hate coffee as much as i thought i did! the automatic timer helps me get my lazy ass out of bed in the morning... apparently the fact that if i don't get up a pot of coffee will go to waste really bothers me when i'm only half conscious... haha
gnite y'all!
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Jan. 11th, 2007 | 03:25 pm
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brave new world anyone?
Dec. 24th, 2006 | 02:57 am
And so this is Xmas,
I hope you have bob.
Merry Xmas (War is Over)
from the Christmas Song Generator.
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Dec. 18th, 2006 | 01:37 am
key:
disappointed
(i promise i'm not going on an emo lj rant about how horrible my life is... lol) basically somewhere in the middle of the semester i somehow lost all motivation, and my grades kinda showed it. they're not drop out of college horrible, but i think it's mathematically impossible now for me to have a 3.0 by the end of next semester in order to get my scholarship back. and that sucks. hard. not so much because of the money, but because i know that if i had the slightest bit of drive for more than a week i could be making something around a 4.0; my priorities are a little messed up.
but this has led to the perversion of me looking forward to going back to school! i want to redeem myself. (sound familiar?) that's exactly what i said last year after the spring semester, and i kicked ass over the summer. got an a- in eac 102. but then something happened during the fall and i'm headed back down again. i can motivate myself when there is painfully obvious motivation... like over the summer, when i had just lost my scholarship. but for some reason when i'm comfortable, i slack off and accomplish nothing. there's no way in hell i'm graduating in five years... :(
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Real Cheese Everyone Loves!
Nov. 26th, 2006 | 01:21 pm
But I'm not kidding, this is some seriously fantastic cheese; great gift ideas!
www.mariescheese.net
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Nov. 21st, 2006 | 12:20 am
If you're a Slacker and you know it... Do Nothing
If you're a Slacker and you know it
And you really want to show it
If you're a slacker and you know it... Do Nothing
(If you're a Slacker and you know it... Be Proud of it!!!)
tony wagner's a funny guy
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Nov. 16th, 2006 | 03:20 am
Yeah, with only one class to go. That's the one i posted pictures of a few entries ago.... I fell off several times on the way up, and i didn't keep my feet strictly to green holds, but i got it! Next week I'm bringing my camera and i'm climbing it right; with feet on green holds, and resting on the way up while supporting my own weight instead of hangin from the harness.
satisfaction? :) I can climb a 5.10 :)
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Nov. 15th, 2006 | 01:26 am
key:
contemplative
chords: Rachmaninov's 2nd
i stopped facebook from automatically importing my lj entries... figured the people who wanted to read them would anyway and that they were just annoying the people who didn't.
This weekend was awesome! I went on a retreat with the KCSC (kentucky catholic student coalition) to morehead, and they have a really nice newman center. The place is an actual parish (here on campus we just have the catholic campus ministry, where a priest from a nearby parish comes and says mass on sunday evening.) with a dedicated building that's several times the size of the IFC. Anyway, we had a full band set up (could've used a keyboardist though...) and had a lot of fun rocking out. Then stayed up until 3 or 4 in the morning jamming with the other guitarists from bellarmine who were pretty cool. That made getting up at 8:00 in the morning a little interesting though... especially since we were sleeping on really hard floors with nothign but a sleeping bag as cushioning. I slept for almost 14 hours when i came back sunday night... no kidding! It was worth it though, i don't get much chance to just sit around and play with other guitarists anymore :(
The retreat overall was just that; a break from the daily grind. Certainly wasn't the best or most life changing one i've ever been on, but It was just nice to be immersed in christianity for a little while again. Met some cool new people, and I didn't realize how much i missed being in an environment where i could talk openly about my faith; where I didn't have to be careful how to phrase something so it is applicable to or won't offend non-catholics/christians... Everyone always jokes that speed school/college eats your soul, and i think there may be a little truth to that. You kinda lose a little bit of your humanity somewhere in the hours of studying (okay, a little partying too) you put in every week.
there are a bunch of people at the ifc wanting me to give guitar lessons... There are also a few other guys who could also give lessons, so it seems like the logical thing to do. I just can't decide if i could justify the time commitment with my grades what they are at the moment... eff speed school! I also can't decide if they should be single or group lessons, and whether or not to charge for them. I could just clock in when i'm teaching, but that's not really fair because then the ifc's paying for something it won't really benefit from. Maybe I'll just wait till next semester? talk to people about it and get stuff straightened out before xmas break.
